Last three weeks have been yet another rollercoaster of feelings. First week I was doped up on morphine for the majority. Last week I was at work for the majority. And this week A and E, and hospital has been on the cards! My morphine week seemed the longest ever from all the rounds and I physically was in no state to do anything. Last week I finally got back to being myself, and working makes me happy! Whereas this week is a completely different week! Finally got to work out in the gym! Well I say that tentatively.... I did a couple of Bodybalance classes. But it was so nice to finally do something! Joined the Raiders in their playoff finals in chelmsford over the weekend, and it was fab catching up with everyone and friends from other teams over the weekend. Catching the 3am ferry back after ice hockey on Sunday/Monday meant i was heading into work on zero sleep. Back to the world of weekends in a giant freezer! Onto monday, work went fine, decided to go up hospital to get my dodgy looking nails and chemo site checked as chemo ward last week had said if didn't clear up with hydrocortisone cream and antibiotics they gave me to head back in. Biggest mistake! A and E was rammed.... Six hour wait! Met a lovely lady and her daughter whilst waiting. And finally went through to be greeted by some of my regular nurses and docs! Had lots of blood taken and holes put in my nails to drain the blood from below them. Very low white blood count, too low for surgery so I was warned the chances of surgery going ahead on Monday was pretty much non existent. Never been so cold in my life, Was bloody freezing in there so my fave nurse, who's done my canula several times now supplied me with lots of blankets to wrap up in. And I was finally on my way home drugs in hand in the early hours of the morning after heading in at 4ish! Tuesday was a normal day...no wait I don't have those anymore!! Went to Southampton general for a few bits and attended a Look Good Feel Better workshop, all about how to apply make up etc to make you look less uncle festerish! It was good but quite patronising at times, giving us a voucher for a free eye brow wax.... I wish I had decent eye brows left!! Next thing I know I'll be given a voucher for a leg wax or hair cut!! Today was surgery discussion with Mr Parker, after a long ass wait for appointment I finally had mine.... Took all of 5 mins! And he's decided Monday is definitely going to be d-day just with a few extra drugs! After worrying last few days that they're going to put it off and potentially another round of chemo to keep me going until the next date. Quite a relief to keep the date! Although I now have three botched nails to add to the list!! Ever tried doing stuff without your fingers?! Or after you've slammed them in a door?! That's how it feels & looks! So onto tomorrow.... Herceptin day! Back to chemo ward I go for yet more needles and drugs! Before a couple of nights up in london enjoying some time before im immobile for a few weeks. Onwards and upwards! Forgotten shit friends and forgotten life's petty dramas now is the time to focus on me! ️Xxx
1 Comment
|
AuthorWrite something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview. Archives
February 2017
Categories |